Fearful Reverence

Hm...so many thoughts.

I'm constantly being reminded of the importance of trust. Sincere, absolute, REAL trust. Mostly in the Lord, but also in my soon to be husband. I thought I had conquered this fear..as I think I do with a lot of things until I start prying into the depths of my heart where, inevitably, I find evil..as Jeremiah 17:9 teaches us (The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?). But GRACE is so beautiful. Always. I don't believe grace would be as beautiful without verses like Jeremiah 17:9.

I find I tend to have a "Dorie" like faith. I forget the wonderful things the Lord has already provided!! How ridiculous. It's easy to judge the Israelite's for their constant lack of faith because we see the whole story line...but we are the EXACT same way. "The LORD said to Moses, "How long will these people spurn Me? And how long will they not believe in Me, despite all the signs which I have performed in their midst?" Numbers 14:11
When I read that, I just sat there...and stared at the words. The word spurn means to reject with disdain or contempt. And to think we do that...almost daily hurts my tummy and heart.

But there's HOPE! Always in the Lord :)

Lately, I've really felt him pulling on my heart strings and back into his arms the second I start to worry. I remember His constant faithfulness. Even if the specific thing I wanted wasn't given to me, I've seen His path be much greater.

Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God. Romans 8:5-8
---always a great reminder. Thanks Paul :)


All I hath needed, they hand hath provided.